The scribbles of a lonely girlfriend!

I have this big shoe box covered in brown paper with pink butterflies. Well it started off as a small box but it started overflowing so it's bigger now. It's called My Happy Place. It's filled with things from Mine and Charlie's relationship since we started going out almost a year ago. Charlie's away in Hong Kong at the moment and i guess this box is just a way of me remembering him. Like there's a little piece of Charlie's Soul in that box for whenever i need comfort when he's away. It may sound soppy and corny but when someone you love is away a lot you need some sort of comfort...right? So i thought it'd be therapeutic to share with you some of the things that are in my safe little haven!



So this is my happy place! Memories Galore. Some of them being sweet treats we've had. Like the last can of coke from The Hill Cafe that Charlie let me had while he had to settle with Orangina. Once we went ice skating where there was a Chuppa Chup machine that was slightly broken...in the sense that one 20p gave us 17 lollies! We split them and of course i ate some but saved a few for my box!!

This ones a little odd. The night Charlie and i told each other we loved each other we were supposed to be going to the funfair...but when we got there it was closed! So we all sat down and chilled out in the park nearby for a while. Half way through our time there we realized we'd lost our friend Ewan who had had a little to much to drink. We called him and turns out he had just stumbled off to the nearest train station to go home without saying goodbye! We found him sitting down by the station in the middle of the street holding 2 halves of a coconut and a yellow lightbulb that he'd "found" near the fair. He put the lightbulb in half of the coconut and handed it to me. "Present!" he drunkenly slurred at me. We put Ewan in a cab which Charlie ended up paying for. We found out the next day that Ewan had left his bag in the cab and the driver had taken advantage of Ewan's drunken state and overcharged him! Poor boy! Anyways, the coconut went bad but i stll kept the lightbulb in memory of the night of "i love you's".


Next in the box is two menus and what we ordered from a Dim Sum restaurant called The Phoenix Palace on baker Street. It's amazing but Charlie orders too much!


To go along with that, the last time we were at this restaurant, Charlie tried to teach me some chinese. I wasn't any good! :S


There's a Ben's Cookies shop in the station near where Charlie lives and every time we go past Charlie insists on getting me a cookie. Seriously....i am the human cookie monster....


This is from the shop i introduced Charlie too. He's obsessed with comics and graphic novels and he was rather grateful that i took him there....however he now is a lot of money worse off seeing as he spends it all in this shop! haha


Usually Charlie and i meet up during the school week in the graveyard at the church on the hill. Sometimes we take snacks to munch on. Once i took twiglets for Charlie and a chocolate orange for me which we shared and Charlie made me keep the packet!!

These are tickets to the concerts and places we've been to. Including The Script, The Killers, Ice skating at Winter Wonderland in Hyde Park, a concert at Charlie's school on our 5th monthaversary! and the charity concert Charlie organized in london!


This is a Chanel Chocolate and rasberry lolly Charlie gave me for Valentines day which i've refused to eat because i want to keep it! Underneath is also a cutting from the wrapping the roses he gave me were wrapped in!


Charlie also gave me a purple photo album for Valentines day, full of pictures of times we've spent together in our long journey of being a couple!


The original lyrics to Trains that he gave me the day he first played and taught it to me. This one makes me quite tearful!


While Charlie is away we usually like to send each other letters. Keeps the traditionally romance alive. Emails are all too modern and hardly show real love right? So this is a pile of letters written by Charlie to me all wrapped up in a ribbon.


So that's my most cherished items in My Happy Place :)


Hope i didn't bore you all or get too soppy! Just thought this might help my little throbbing heart whilst Charlie's away. Surprisingly it's helped! Hope you enjoyed!

All my love,

Carrie

xxx

Love you and leave you.

Charlie's gone back home to Hong Kong for the three weeks Easter holiday....andddd the depression has set in.
Yesterday we spent most of the day together. I met him at his boarding house with his younger but taller brother, Nickie and headed to their flat. We dropped off their cases and headed to Nando's for lunch. We ate quite a lot i must admit! We all ate 10 chicken wings each, shared a plate of garlic bread and chips (however i didn't eat many of the chips...training and all that!) We washed our rather sticky chickeny hands and left just after the rain had stopped. On our way back Charlie and i decided to sing disney songs at the top of our lungs even though a lot of people were giving us funny looks....including Nickie who had quickened his pace to pretend he wasn't with us!
We got back to the flat and Charlie and i decided to look up flight of the conchords songs and laughed quite a lot at the lines "Have you ever been told that you look like a llama" and "The day after my birthday is not my birthday, mum". Seriously, if you haven't seen them before, check out flight of the conchords....but be prepared for silliness!!!
Anyway, charlie and i Ustreamed for a bit which you can still watch if you so wish to.... http://www.ustream.tv/channel/carriehfletcher

So then Charlie and i decided to watch a few friends episodes and eat more of the easter egg i got him....we couldn't finish it! It's still sitting in his fridge as i type! Then i got all emotional and started crying and then he hugged me but...wouldn't let go....because he was crying himself and was making my the shoulder of my top all wet!! We sat and cried for a while and told each other that obviously we were gonna be ok...we were crying simply because of how much we're gonna miss each other. We've suffered worse. 2 months last summer was absolute agony. We'll manage 3 weeks!

I spoke to him today on skype and he's arrived in Hong Kong safely. I'll be taking my laptop with me to Florida so i can keep in touch and keep him up to date on which characters i've met :P I didn't think anyone could love someone this much. I thought stuff like this belonged in fairytales and movies and that's where it stayed. Charlie's really managed to sweep me off my feet!!! and i'm pretty sure it's not gonna change for a long long time!



All my love!

Carrie

xxx

For all you BookWorms out there!

Hello all!
I tweet a lot about what i'm reading and whether the books are any good and lots of people have been asking me to recommend books! Well i thought i'd compile a list of books that i've read that i've enjoyed. Might help a few of you that are stuck on what to read! So here goes!

1. The Twilight series (once you've read the first one you're gonna have to read the rest!
2. The Host By Stephanie Meyer
3. The Book Theif by Marcus Zusak
4. Noughts and Crosses by Malorie Blackman
5. Happy Ever After by Adele Geras
6. Looking for JJ by Anne Cassidy
7. The Diamond of Drury Lane by Julia Golding.
8. The Doomspell By Cliff McNish
9. The Woman in Black by Susan Hill
10. Before i Die By Jenny Downham
11. Elsewhere by Gabrielle Zevin
12. The extraordinary and unusual adventures of Horatio Lyle by Catherine Webb
13. An offer you can't refuse by Jill Mansill
14. Beauty By Robin Mckinley
15. Freaks by Annette Curtis Klaus
16. The Swansong of Wilbur McCrum by Bronia Kita
17. King Dork by Frank Portman
18. A little Love song by Michelle Magorian
19. Exchange by Paul Magrs
20. The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold

I think that should do for now! I'm Currently reading Hammer by Sara Stockbridge. I've only just started but it's pretty good so far if anyone wants to give it a go?

All my love,

Carrie
xxx

Back to blogging!

Wow, haven't blogged for a while! Just thought i'd let ya know what's going on in Carrie world!

Well, i'm training three times a week now. Gotta keep healthy and looking good! This is hopefully gonna be a big year for me. Now that i've left school it's onwards and upwards in pursuing the acting and singing career! But anyways, Training with my instructor Dave is tiring but i feel wicked afterwards! The Mcfly boys are obviously working hard now so i'm training all on my lonesome which makes it all the more hard! Usually with the guys i'll get a break while they do one exercise and once their done we'll switch. Now i'm constantly on my toes! But it'll all pay off in the end! No pain no gain right?

Valentines day was amazing! He bought me a chocolate lolly from Chanel, a big bunch of roses (which surprisingly are still alive!) and he made me this big purple book of pictures of us since we've started going out. He'd printed them off, cut them out and stuck them in the book and written little captions next to each picture....bless him. I really loved it! In return i gave him "A Happy Place".....maybe i should explain....Since we've been going out i've kept a shoe box and collected little souvenirs from places we've gone. Like receits from restaurants and wristband's from his band's concerts and tickets from ice skating...that kind of thing. I made him his own little box and took some things out of my box that should be in his along with a heartfelt letter. *holds up sign post saying "AWWWWWWW"*

I spent most of the last week with Charlie. We watched a few movies including the Goonies, Ghost and Laputa! But then i found out he's never seen the Wizard of Oz....SHOCK HORROR! That's next on the list i think!

Well anyways, i better skidaddle. Me and mum are gonna watch the Bafta's now. A Good buddy is up for the Rising star award!! GOOD LUCK NICK!!!!

Love to all!

Carrie

xxx

2009

This year has been one of the best so far. So much has happened and i've met so many unbelievable people! When i say year, really i mean since i turned 16-now. So it's a bit longer then a year actually!
This is just a brief run down of my incredible year......

-It all started off Playing Eponine in Les Miserables at Harrow school! There i met some amazing people some of whom are still in my close group of friends even now :
-Souvid
-Sebastian
-Dan
-Hugo
-Jamie
-Adam
-The Lambert Brothers
-Kightley
-Joey
-Ryan
-And Ewan......(Sorry if i've forgotten anyone!) AnnndddThrough Ewan i met
-Ken
-Felix
and My Charlie Bear.
All of whom have made a huge impact on my life.


Anyhow, there have been a lot of changes in me as a person this year. I finally found a group of friends i belonged with which made me grow as a person. I'm more confident of who i am and i'm not scared to be that person. because i can't be anyone else. No matter who doesn't like it.


Charlie has made such an influence on my life this year. He's extremely wise and has helped me through a lot and i can't thank him enough. We've had a great 7 (almost 8) months and hopefully many more to come :) I love him lots and lots and wish he could have been here for christmas and new years...but at least he's here for Valentines :)


Now, not only did i make a lot of friends during Les Mis, but i also became closer to someone who i can tell will be a life long friend! My Dearest Mr T! What a legend! And to think he's now dating one of my other close friends, Antony Hart....it's just a beautiful thing to see two of my best friends getting together....:P (they'll kill me for this!!!!) but yes. Mr T. You are a legend and i hope our friendship is a life long pleasure. :)


I had a rather big emotional blow at the end of this year and that was leaving school! I spent 5 years and a term at Northwood College school for girls and i'm going to miss it ridonkulous amounts. I learnt a lot at that school. Not just academically but socially and i learnt a lot about myself and my own potential as a person. I'll miss my mates like Saffy, Vicky and Noor but i'll alos miss my teachers, like Mr Brown, Mrs Spicer, Miss McCoy and most of all my music teacher Dr Roche. He was and still is the biggest legend in this entire world. He wasn't just a teacher. He was a friend.


Well anyways. I'll stop rambling. I hope everyone has a fantastic 2010. I know i will ;)

Carrie Hope Fletcher

xxx

Boy/Friend!!!

Holy cow what a week!
Christmas was amazing! ! Spent it round Tom's house. Got a lot of nice things (The artwork of Tim Burton from Charlie!!) and Giovanna cooked a B.E.A.Utiful christmas dinner for us all! Was extremely yummy in my tummy! The Dr Who special was amazing but when David Tennant regenerates on New year's day.....gonna ruin my day!!! haha

One of the Highlights of my christmas however was having my best buds come and stay over on monday! Mike, Antony and Aaron came over to mine on Monday afternoon and it was such a pleasure to see them all since i hadn't seen them since my christmas party on the 12th! They came over and we chilled out, playing guitar, looking up stupid youtube videos and just chatting. I took for a walk over the park and got Antony's new white shoes....just a little muddy....(he almost killed me)....but my answer was simply "Oi...where's your sense of adventure?!" :P We got Antony the M&M's he'd been craving and headed home to check out cinema times. We managed to convince Mike that he wanted to see Avatar in 3D again....even though he'd seen it once and hated it the first time ..... he hated it even more the second time! haha However i loved it and i recommend seeing it!! Then we TWITCAMMED! For anyone that didn't see it http://twitcam.com/9vue there it is!! It was a right laugh. Had a very big giggle. And i've never loved friends like i love Mike, Antony and Aaron (and woody but he wasn't there! :( )

Which brings me on to my next point....my MAIN point! Can guys and gals be friends?
HELL YES they can! Now i have a lot of male friends. Simply coz i find it easier to get on with guys. Grew up with a brother what can i say? But I don't care what people think! Antony and i have been friends for about 2 years now and Mike and i have been friends about a year.....and nothing has ever gone on between us! Well....actually....I think something is going on between Antony and Mike....but that's a totally different, guy/guy situation! Relationships are all about trust. Boyfriends can have female mates and if the girlfriend trusts him enough then there should be no problem. And Vice versa. Charlie trusts me with having male friends because he knows i love him but he also knows i love Mike and Antony just as much. It's just a different kinda love people. And i'm not stupid enough to test his trust nor would i want to!

Anyways. I'm getting mega tired and i'm watching Benjamin Button! a fiver in sainsbury's! BARGAIN!

Nighty Night all

xxx

Rockin' around the christmas tree!

This week has been a real rollercoaster!!
Last saturday was my Christmas Party! It was INCREDIBLE!!!!! The idea behind it was that Charlie isn't spending christmas here but in Hong Kong where he lives..so my mum said "why don't we have a christmas dinner for him?" which then turned into a christmas party! This would also give Charlie the chance to meet the members of my family and friends that he hasn't met yet! Surprise surprise...they loved him!!!

The party was a success! We boogied, drank wine, ate lots of pizza and above all....we sang and played guitar a hell of a lot!!! My brother happily picked up the guitar and delighted us with a few Mcfly numbers and my mates Antony, Woody and Mike were more than happy to join in! I mean....look at their faces!!

Anyways, Charlie had his interview for Oxford the following monday so he couldn't stay over so Mike, Antony, Aaron, Woody and my friend noor stayed over instead. We were up all night laughing like loonies over the most pathetic jokes!! We ended up getting to sleep at 8am and waking up about 10am!!! Ridonkulous! But it's the best night i've had ALL year!!!

Anyways, So on wednesday i went into school for my last day ever!!! I've been at that school now for 5 years and i'm going to miss it a hell of a lot! I went to say goodbye to my legendary music teacher and we sat reminiscing of the concerts and plays we both worked on together. He got all teary as did i and seeing as it was my last day he gave me a hug and told me to keep in touch! You see, My music teacher joined the school the same year as i did and me being a bit of a misfit found that i belonged in the Performing Arts Centre and my music teacher was more than happy to let me sing whilst he played piano every lunch time. i guess what i'm trying to say is that he became a friend instead of a teacher. And out of all the friends i made at NC i'm going to miss him the most. Dr Roche, You're a legend.

After that emotional blow, Charlie met me from school with a bunch of flowers. We got some lunch and headed back to my house to eat the sarnies we got watch "The Santa Clause"!!! After that we went took the train to Kensington where he lives when he's in london to watch Family Guy!!! (I'm a huge fan of that now after Charlie educating me!! haha). It was there i got a call from my brother telling me my parents had had a car crash and they were all at the hospital! He reassured me everyone was ok just cuts and bruises and a bit of whiplash on my dad's part! Once i put the phone down i was in tears again! Charlie made me a cup of tea and i calmed down and we talked things through. once i'd stopped crying i could barely stand up. Emotional exhaustion i'd say!
The next morning Charlie and i went to Patisserie Valerie for breakfast. Croque Madame! AMAZING! I was unbelievably hungry but that did the trick! Charlie then packed and i was forced to say goodbye to him at the train station :/ This time the both of us were in tears and it took a lot to leave.
When i got home, Tom was at the house looking after mum and dad who couldn't move around very much at all! Unfortunately mum found out yesterday that she's got a chipped sternum....y'know...the bone down the centre of your chest that links all your ribs! OWEE! She's ok though. Just strong painkillers for her!!

So yeah, what a week eh?! Got Antony, Aaron, Woody and Mike coming over on wednesday so they should be able to cheer me up ! And if they can't then i'm kicking the all out of the house! We're twitcamming though so it'll be fine! For those who follow me you'd better be watching!!
Well it's late so i'm gonna scoot off to bed!!
Nighty night all!
The Ghiblisaurus!
xxx